Losing a Pet Child

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Cinnamon, My 16 yr. Old baby girl

I feel like I’m dying inside. Cinnamon took a turn for the worst in the past few days. When I took her to the vet today they said I should seriously consider putting her down. They said that in addition to hyperthyroidism which I’m treating her for thst she has a grade 4 heart murmur, severely anemic, is badly arthritic, has signs of dementia and a problem with her tail that she can no longer lift it. She’s been howling non stop for the past two days and nights.

I’m not ready to face this. She’s my baby. I’ve had her for 16 years. Since I graduated from college and moved to the DC Metro she’s been my companion through everything. I told the vet to give me a bag of Ringers solution to hydrate her and some pain  meds to ease things.

I had to let my other baby go last year when he was in so much pain and I’m not ready to let my best girl ever go. I’m so distraught.

I feel like I’m experiencing too much loss all at once. I don’t know what’s going on, but I feel like my heart is being ripped out and stomped on.

With love from aneternaltraveler 😉

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