I feel overwhelmed by the life I am living. I keep taking on a little more thinking that my shoulders can hack it, but lately I’ve started to notice how tired I’ve become. I’ve noticed that I’ve given up things that make me happy just to make more money to pay for the things I’ve added to my shoulders. Say what???
For over a year I worked at a low paying job just to have some income to make ends meet. Then, I got a new job and found myself keeping the other one as a second income. Little by little, I let other things go just to stay focused on making money.
Where Am I??
Last Tuesday night, I was driving home at the end of a 13 hr workday and I thought about why I was doing this and how exhausted I felt. I used to work out 6 days/week and I hadn’t done a thing there in almost 3 months and I ordered take out more. So, I was gaining weight. I was letting things go in the house. I found myself becoming increasingly irritable around people. I was passing out on the couch and couldn’t even make it to my bed. I’d signed up for a course to become a personal trainer and every time I opened the manual to study, I fell asleep. I didn’t even feel like I had time to do what I needed to do to create opportunities for advancement in my primary job. This was getting ridiculous!!
By Wednesday, I resolved to take action. I couldn’t keep living like this. I reasoned that my second job was bringing me income, but absolutely no opportunity for advancement. My first job, however held more potential if I put the effort into it. It came down to deciding if I could struggle in the short term financially with the belief that getting my life in order would open me up to greater opportunity. I remembered that the Law of Attraction states, that “like attracts like” and if I kept going on the path I was on, I’d likely attract health problems and great dissatisfaction with my life.
So, I resolved to quit my second job and gave my 2 weeks notice Friday. I left the door open so that I could come back if need be in the future, but I am going to commit to pursuing the things that lead to happiness instead of more money this time around. I have some money in savings that I will use as a stop gap while I get my life in order again (or maybe for the first time).
I guess I’ve operated from a point of scarcity for so long that my fear of loss or fear of not having enough has been holding me back from the joy of focusing on doing what makes me happy. For me, this is an earth-shattering concept and by no means comfortable. I’m used to working hard and focusing on earning money. Now, I’ve made the choice sacrifice money for the benefit of my personal well-being.
I’m also excited about what I will learn from refocusing my attention onto my well-being instead. Will the old adage prove true? – “do what you love and the money will follow”. I’m about to find out.
Below I’ve created a list that I will call my “10 Great Places to Invest.” These are the areas that I believe are important to creating sustained happiness in my life. To hold myself accountable and to track my daily progress, at the end of each day, I’ll give myself a check mark if I do it and an X if I do not. This way I know where I’m succeeding and where I need work to maximize my happy factor 🙂
10 Great Places to Invest
- Kindness to Another (do something nice that makes another person smile)
- Kindness to Oneself (do something nice for yourself that makes you smile)
- Moderation (Do I really need that piece of cake, extra helping or that pair of shoes, etc.?)
- Health (exercise)
- Improved Environment (organize/eliminate for greater efficiency, only add what benefits)
- Ego Check (defensiveness, harsh words)
- Gratitude (what IS great in my life)
- Growth (always learning)
- Respect Your Money (do I really need that?)
- Do more/think less (believe you already know what you want, now go do it)
- Kindness to Another – Give a sincere compliment to a co-worker who you don’t like much
- Kindness to Oneself – Tell myself something nice about myself as soon as I wake up
- Moderation – Don’t eat the desert for lunch
- Health – Exercise 5x/week
- Improved Environment – Clear out my closets of unnecessary items
- Ego Check – Don’t retaliate insult, just say something like “wow that’s interesting, tell me more”
- Gratitude – List 5 things that I’m happy for each day
- Growth – Spend 1 hr./day studying personal training manual
- Respect Your Money – Don’t buy junk food with my hard earned cash
- Do More / Think Less – Sort through 1 box at a time in the basement